On Sunday May 21, 2017, I completed the goal I’ve worked the last four years to reach. On my big bucket list of lifelong dreams, I was finally able to check this one off. It truly was a beautiful and bittersweet moment. It did not go smoothly, as things rarely do, and by the end of the day I was completely whipped, but I did it!
And in the midst of all the "lasts" I still haven’t cried. My last day of classes, my last final, my last Asian bowl (ok I almost cried at that one), and my last time walking on campus as a Luther student. I expected that these things would be emotional and painful for me, but they really weren’t.
Then came the goodbyes.
Goodbye to my professors, goodbye to my mentors, my role models, the lovely people that make my Asian bowl, and goodbye to my friends. I thought that this would be the time that the tears would start to flow, and yet they didn’t. I have spent the last couple of days wondering why I haven’t been emotional about this whole process. And this is the conclusion I have drawn.
The goodbyes are only temporary for me. I have spent the last four years not just going from class to class only waving at the passersby, I have spent that time building relationships that I fully plan to last me for the next four years and beyond.
The professors that have taught me the many wonderful things I’ve learned in and out of my classes are more than just people who happen to be qualified to teach at this college, they are my mentors and role models in life. You don’t just walk away from people like that, you cherish them, you keep in contact, and you continue that relationship you’ve worked so hard to build.
To the real and true friends I have made in the last four years, know that your friendship was not simply a convenience to me. The goodbyes we said on Sunday will not be the last! We have been through too much and shared too many beautiful memories for that to be so. The love I have for you all surpases time and space. It may not be in person, maybe it’s only a phone call now and then, a Skype session, or a Snapchat, but we will see each other again and there will be many more goodbyes for us to share.
Maybe this wishful thinking of "goodbye only being for now" is a little too romantic. Maybe it’s just my way of coping with this change in life. Interpret it how you will, I know that graduating Luther is not the end. What will keep me going is knowing that it’s not a goodbye forever, just a goodbye for now.