Not every experience in my life has been an easy, or even good one for that matter. I have had to deal with a lot of things that other 20 year olds have not. Many people have given me their sympathy but I always reply with, “I wouldn’t be who I am today if it didn’t happen.” Every moment in my life has changed me. But in the end I am pretty proud of the woman I am today because of it.
College has been filled with many life changing moments as well. I have loved and I have lost. I have passed and I have failed. I have laughed and I have cried, occasionally at the same time. All of these moments have shaped and reformed me. Two years ago I did not have the same social, emotional, or academic knowledge that I do now. These moments have not always been easy or happy but they have been worth it, and will continue to be so!
You may be wondering why someone who is merely getting done with their sophomore year of college is getting so emotional. There are two main reasons for this: one, I’m just a very reflective emotional person, and two, I will not be at Luther next year. I will be thousands of miles away on an entirely different continent. It is starting to hit me how scary this really is…. I know that my time there will be life changing and I will return a different person than I was when I left.
What the last two years of college, and especially the last few weeks, have taught me, is that it’s ok to not know what you’re doing, it’s ok to be scared, and you should embrace it! It took reflecting on this time to realize how important the small things in life are and the impact they have on you as a human. I have always focused so much on the major changes in my life that I forget about those little things like so many people do.
It will definitely be sad to say goodbye to my friends both here and at home. And I will be completely honest and say that I am terrified by what might happen in the next 12 months. But really, I don’t know what’s going to happen in the next 12 days. You are never guaranteed another day or another breath or another smile. It’s sounds so cheesy but that’s reality.
Every moment you live is life changing; every day, every hour, every second. Even the time it took you to read this blog has been life changing because you are not the same person you were when you started. You’ve replenished your oxygen and hopefully opened up your mind. Don’t be afraid of being afraid of what change might happen next because it’s inevitable. Don’t fight the change, embrace it.