The Jitters

August 31, 2012

At the end of my junior year of high school I felt so ready for college. I knew to which schools I wanted to apply, had a good idea of what I wanted to study, and, most importantly, that I was more than ready to be finished with high school. It almost felt like I had been waiting for years for the day that I could finally leave home, be on my own, make new friends, take classes that I’m interested in…

The week before I left for Luther my brain began making an entirely different set of lists. Rather than dreaming about all of my possibilities for the future, I suddenly felt as though I was having nightmares of the unknown. Despite my best efforts, I could not summon up any of my prior enthusiasm. Instead, all I could think of was how uncomfortable the next few months of my life were going to be: I won’t know anyone at Luther, my classes are going to be extremely challenging, I won’t know how to budget my time between classes, extra-curriculars, and time to have fun with friends (if I even make any!), I might not get along with my roommate, what happens if I don’t make the freshmen choir…

In spite of my fears, I somehow managed to make countless Target trips, order hundreds of dollars of textbooks from Amazon, fill an entire Kia full of furniture, and make the trek from Northfield, MN to Decorah. After arranging my dorm room, I said a hard goodbye to my mom, and suddenly I was completely on my own. Just like I had always wanted. But suddenly I didn’t want it so much.

However, my orientation week proved to be much better than my jittery mind imagined. The first year students were kept busy with a myriad of activities, lectures, and meals. The Luther staff has also been incredibly helpful in trying to make the transition as seamless as possible, whether that is by simply asking how everything is going, professors encouraging students to speak with them after class, or even by President Torgerson making sure that he met every single new student.

While I still can’t wrap my head around the fact that I actually live here at Luther (and that I’ll be here for the next four years!), my jitters are slowly starting to fade. The Luther community has helped us deal with the culture shock of being a first year college student, and I am confident that they will continue to support us through both the wonderful and the difficult times over the next four years.

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