You would think that after 3 years of being a college student that I would be able to manage my time, but lately I have been having the hardest time getting into a routine. Time management has not always been my forte, but I find that the busier I am the more productive I am with my time. It’s funny to think of the differences between my study habits between my first year at Luther, versus my study habits now. During my first year, my biggest worry was when my next paideia paper is due, who I was hanging out with that night, when I was going to find time to go to Wal-Mart, or what I was going to have to eat. As the years have flown by, I have gotten more involved on campus by joining groups and organizations, playing sports, and trying to maintain a balance between my academic, social life and alone time.
Now I have to use my time wisely to make deadlines for my senior paper, plan meetings, attend meetings, practice, lifting, etc. It is only the second week of classes and I feel like I am exhausting myself already by being involved in TOO much on campus. After discussing my dilemma with my friends and thinking about it all weekend, I realized that it’s time for me to step down from some of the commitments that I had made in previous years in order for me to get through the semester. It was a tough decision to make but I feel like it will open up a little more free time during my week so I will be able to sit down and breathe for a second. It will be interesting to see if I will use that free time more effectively or not but I am hoping I will.
I think that by me being able to recognize that I have already exhausted myself this early has shown that I really have grown up and learned a lot about myself over the previous years. It’s not easy to step down from leadership roles and organizations but sometimes you have to make sacrifices in order to get by. I think this further shows the transformation that you make as you spend more time at Luther learning about yourself and others around you. I am grateful for the people that I have met by getting involved in different organizations and I will still maintain the friendships that I have made, but I just can’t commit to any more than I already have on my plate.